So Monday would be last day of school with the kids for me.
Last paper...and I will be supervising.
Sure, I'll see some in the hols. Might even go back once or twice in June for a few things but..essentially...it's a last day around them for me.
I was supervising yesterday and I found myself growing...not sad, not bitter, not depressed but more wistful...
Wondering when I'd see all these kids again. Imagining what they would look like in their new uniforms after grade 8.
Those who would pass out...those not yet in secondary (though except for three/four of those, none know me...)
It is a bear to let all of this go. The attachment is killer.
Sometimes I wonder if it would've been better without the attachment.
But then, perhaps I would not have been as good a teacher as I have been. (not big headed here...just working on feedback gotten from kids, parents and teachers alike...).
I finally believe I have found my vocation.
Previously, all thoughts about jobs were always along the lines of "let's try this or that. See how it goes and how interest holds." Sometimes I find myself getting overwhelmed as I sit and think about transitioning from student to professional life. However...were that transition into the post of a teacher, I think I would have no problems at all...
But with travelling being a driving motive...teaching in high school right off the bat is not an option...Teachers just aren't paid that well...
One option is teaching in B-schools but will need some industrial experience first before I can offer myself up as expert faculty....
In some ways though...perhaps I'm leaving at the right time...before the attachment becomes...a dependency...
I've already mentioned somewhere else that I seem to leach energy from the kids. On days I go to school, I will have invariably have a good day (when responding on IM) and on others, I would have an OK day...
Just some things I noticed once...funny but intriguing....and true...
Oh well...it's been a fantastic couple of years and I've learned a lot...hopefully the experience will lead to something in my future than just the one off fling.
Let's see....
Last paper...and I will be supervising.
Sure, I'll see some in the hols. Might even go back once or twice in June for a few things but..essentially...it's a last day around them for me.
I was supervising yesterday and I found myself growing...not sad, not bitter, not depressed but more wistful...
Wondering when I'd see all these kids again. Imagining what they would look like in their new uniforms after grade 8.
Those who would pass out...those not yet in secondary (though except for three/four of those, none know me...)
It is a bear to let all of this go. The attachment is killer.
Sometimes I wonder if it would've been better without the attachment.
But then, perhaps I would not have been as good a teacher as I have been. (not big headed here...just working on feedback gotten from kids, parents and teachers alike...).
I finally believe I have found my vocation.
Previously, all thoughts about jobs were always along the lines of "let's try this or that. See how it goes and how interest holds." Sometimes I find myself getting overwhelmed as I sit and think about transitioning from student to professional life. However...were that transition into the post of a teacher, I think I would have no problems at all...
But with travelling being a driving motive...teaching in high school right off the bat is not an option...Teachers just aren't paid that well...
One option is teaching in B-schools but will need some industrial experience first before I can offer myself up as expert faculty....
In some ways though...perhaps I'm leaving at the right time...before the attachment becomes...a dependency...
I've already mentioned somewhere else that I seem to leach energy from the kids. On days I go to school, I will have invariably have a good day (when responding on IM) and on others, I would have an OK day...
Just some things I noticed once...funny but intriguing....and true...
Oh well...it's been a fantastic couple of years and I've learned a lot...hopefully the experience will lead to something in my future than just the one off fling.
Let's see....
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