Reflections on...leaving

on Monday, February 25, 2008

So...now that a lot of the kids at school know that I won't be back next year...I get asked...will I be leaving Pune forever?
It's sort of a funny question. Reflects the child in these...well...children.
Given that I've got a very positive response from most everybody (students) in school, (well you can't please everybody), I'd like to think that this is some sort of hopeful query about the possibility of me being back someday...potentially in school.
It is very unlikely (unless something tremendously absurd happens) that I will return to school while any of the kids I've taught are still around...
It is likely I will visit, but they won't see me in the capacity of a teacher again...hence (I suppose) the question...

But it just made me wonder...what ARE my thoughts on Pune?
Honestly speaking, I can't wait to get out of this place at this time.
The singular reason behind this is the atrocious traffic. I have said it before and I will say it again...there is an attempt on my life every single day, travelling on these terrible terrible roads with demented drivers...and I look forward to leaving it behind.
Previously...what were my options of escape? Mumbai...with its large volume but at least (comparatively) more organised and disciplined drivers...I'd take it.
Now that it's confirmed that I will be allowed into schools in the US, currently I look forward to going there...far from the madding crowds...
However, when I come back...what of the situation then? It might've deteriorated...then...do I come back?
Hah. The real answer to that is: yes. However, I'm a creature of convenience, as far as achieving goals goes and with travel being my dominant goal in life...it actually is convenient if I get a passport from a country with a large number of visa waivers...but that topic is really for another post...should remember that..

Anyway...back to the point...
Leaving Pune is a priority now. The only thing(s) that would be keep me here is (are): The American Government refusing me a visa because, for some reason, they think I'm a terrorist. However, the chances of that are as slim (I think) as Scotland becoming free during Sean Connery's life...
And then, having been refused on grounds of terrorism, I do a B.Ed and then there's a vacancy at school.
I somehow suspect that my fairy tale as a teacher has been helped by the fact that I went to work in a place where I knew the teachers, if not the kids...and then, there have been links dug up by the kids themselves as well...so it's been great.
I often wonder what it would've been like, had I gone elsewhere.
Truth be told...probably just as good (but again that's material for another post...coming soon to a blog near this one! Er...this one...actually) but we will never know. (sorry for the rambling asides.... ;-) )

So yeah...since Scotland won't be free in the next year and even if it does, after getting my B.Ed (which I would have to do, if refused a visa...)...I doubt a vacancy opens up at school...even though there are some threats...(one knows a hollow one when one hears it)...and so, no, I won't be in Pune much longer.

Having said all of that (and it was a LOT), I could never leave Pune forever.
Having been born and brought up here, there are too many ties that bind...friends, family...even some places...though getting to some of those places is a death sentence these days...and some places don't exist/are not that special any more...
Also, my parents intend to retire here. We will always have property here..
I have no idea where I will retire. I have planned a lot of things in general...but nothing that far off...
Who's seen the future? Do I reach retirement age?
Do people still retire at 60 when I reach that age? Or does inflation require them to work till 80 to survive?
Who knows? (Actually...there are some people who claim to know...but then again, that needs to be worked in another post...)

So yeah...getting back to the point (AGAIN) - no I'd never leave Pune forever...
I'd keep coming back.
I'm not going to be here for the immediate future but I will be back and it would be interesting to look up all my kids again and see how they're doing...the internet having made the world a small place, I'm pretty sure I'll be in touch with some of them...

So yeah...it's late. The rambles prove it.
I won't be in Pune for long and for now, I ought not to be at my keyboard for long...
Having said that...I hope most all of that made sense.
If it did not...at least this will...

Good night!

(Me rambling equals late nights...which might result in amusing posts but they tend to get long winded and digressive.)

Must. Go. Now.

(See what I mean?)

*sigh*

*snore*

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