Hmm...
After the mention of being too happy for philosophy yesterday, something just came to me this morning.
I'm still happy but I just like pondering I suppose...
As I was filling fuel in my bike this morning, one of the pump attendants was feeling chatty. He was asking about what sort of charges the credit card company tacks on for using the card at pumping stations.
He meant well and asked the errand guy to use the right machine to swipe the card, lest I be charged a service fee.
Now regardless of what machine is used, I am charged 2.5% of the transaction as a service fee.
My dad has a special card, I don't...
My first reaction to this questioning was: why does he care? What's up?
I did realise that he was just feeling friendly (he even offered me some tea) but it made me muse on why my first thoughts were negative...
Is it just me that I find it hard for random persons to be friendly with me?
For I have trouble approaching random people to be friends with...though both are distinct issues...
Or is it that one hears so often about identity theft and small readers that read the electronic information off the magnetic strip of your card...
Is it only when transactions are concerned that one (I?) feels concerned when someone seems to be unusually friendly?
Is there even such a thing as unusually friendly?
Perhaps we just have too much information...
Perhaps it's just me.
I remember my first day in Indira in Pune and there was this guy who was friendly then. Well, I didn't know anybody and he sort of looks like someone whom a "decent" person might not hang with.
Eventually, it did turn out that he just IS a friendly sort of chap. He's also quite sweet and were it not for his vacuousness, we might even have been friends...
There was no transaction involved here. Then what was wrong? Is it me? I would like to think it's not...
Perhaps there was this perceived transaction in the future. "He's being friendly. What does he want? I don't even know him" - something along these lines.
I suppose in the end, it's all to do with perceptions and perceptions differ - from person to person, from situation to situation. I still feel fuzzy when I'm smiled at by a random person who happens to catch my eye. It's happened twice and I remember them both. Why was the intention behind that smile not suspect? Was it because both people moved on before anything else could be established?
People who are being friendly...do they even have any conscious intentions? Maybe they're just happy and the whole point is moot...
What is it about intentions?
Good ones, bad ones, cruel ones?
Why should the second and third even exist?
Bah...rambling about the very nature of humanity is not going to be fruitful or productive.
Today's point to ponder: Is it me? Is it them? Or is it society and conditioning.
I'm conditioning myself to be less annoyed when things don't go my way. Perhaps I should start conditioning to smile more at random people and to be more trusting of random strangers who are being friendly?
(Is that last statement oxymoronic?)
Alright...
Definitely time for bed!!
Tune in tomorrow for: Reflections on...bluntness!
After the mention of being too happy for philosophy yesterday, something just came to me this morning.
I'm still happy but I just like pondering I suppose...
As I was filling fuel in my bike this morning, one of the pump attendants was feeling chatty. He was asking about what sort of charges the credit card company tacks on for using the card at pumping stations.
He meant well and asked the errand guy to use the right machine to swipe the card, lest I be charged a service fee.
Now regardless of what machine is used, I am charged 2.5% of the transaction as a service fee.
My dad has a special card, I don't...
My first reaction to this questioning was: why does he care? What's up?
I did realise that he was just feeling friendly (he even offered me some tea) but it made me muse on why my first thoughts were negative...
Is it just me that I find it hard for random persons to be friendly with me?
For I have trouble approaching random people to be friends with...though both are distinct issues...
Or is it that one hears so often about identity theft and small readers that read the electronic information off the magnetic strip of your card...
Is it only when transactions are concerned that one (I?) feels concerned when someone seems to be unusually friendly?
Is there even such a thing as unusually friendly?
Perhaps we just have too much information...
Perhaps it's just me.
I remember my first day in Indira in Pune and there was this guy who was friendly then. Well, I didn't know anybody and he sort of looks like someone whom a "decent" person might not hang with.
Eventually, it did turn out that he just IS a friendly sort of chap. He's also quite sweet and were it not for his vacuousness, we might even have been friends...
There was no transaction involved here. Then what was wrong? Is it me? I would like to think it's not...
Perhaps there was this perceived transaction in the future. "He's being friendly. What does he want? I don't even know him" - something along these lines.
I suppose in the end, it's all to do with perceptions and perceptions differ - from person to person, from situation to situation. I still feel fuzzy when I'm smiled at by a random person who happens to catch my eye. It's happened twice and I remember them both. Why was the intention behind that smile not suspect? Was it because both people moved on before anything else could be established?
People who are being friendly...do they even have any conscious intentions? Maybe they're just happy and the whole point is moot...
What is it about intentions?
Good ones, bad ones, cruel ones?
Why should the second and third even exist?
Bah...rambling about the very nature of humanity is not going to be fruitful or productive.
Today's point to ponder: Is it me? Is it them? Or is it society and conditioning.
I'm conditioning myself to be less annoyed when things don't go my way. Perhaps I should start conditioning to smile more at random people and to be more trusting of random strangers who are being friendly?
(Is that last statement oxymoronic?)
Alright...
Definitely time for bed!!
Tune in tomorrow for: Reflections on...bluntness!
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